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Sunday, March 24, 2013

Photographic Project

So this week I've been working on a photographic project.  Hey, what do you get when you mix an engineering mind (from schooling), technicians mind (from my Dad!), and an artist (genetics!), you get:

Now I realize this looks like a Frankenstein type of contraption.  A trip to Radio Shack and Home Depot, some Christmas lights and an old ceiling fan motor and a little creativity yields this:

Now obviously I've done no cropping of the pictures as of yet.  These are the test shots I did.  I had a set of lights (4 lights each) of red, magneta, blue, green and yellow.  Powered by a 9 Volt battery by each set of lights, I decided to combine blue and green on some pictures, red and magneta on the next.  The first has a 5 light set with one of each.  I have yet to experiment with merging the files together in Photoshop, but hey that means the project is not done!

On another note, no migraine!  The two week (it was starting to be one week) cycle is broken!  Thank the Lord!

So my creative flare continues.  I may be self taught in photography, but I have an awesome God who gives me help, to Him be the glory! 


Saturday, March 16, 2013

Update on a Beautiful Day

It is a FANTASTIC day today.  The windows are open, a nice breeze blowing in the apartment, the birds are singing, the squirrels are in a frolic mood, and I'm feeling absolutely wonderful.  First weekend in a long time that I haven't had a major headache, nausea, and just absolutely felt in my right mind.

After last weekend, I began researching migraines and headaches.  Frankly, I did not want to have another headache, but I also didn't want to take the headache and nausea medicine I was given.  Every time I'm on it, it scares Ginger, because I'm quite literally not in control of my mind (thanks to my Mom for giving me those words, which described exactly how I felt).  I acted different, quite loopy, and just, well not myself.  Last weekend I had taken it without Ginger's knowledge so she had no idea what was wrong with me (and was relieved to find out I was on medication).  It is quite literally how Ginger is when her bipolar is bad, not herself, and you're just praying for your loved one back.  Anyway, I came across something about aspartame.  It is an artificial sweetener for those who don't know.  For a little over two months I've drank, almost exclusively, flavored water or crystal light.  Throw in a coke or two, but from morning to night I was drinking it.  Grape, lemon, mandarin orange.  I'd even replaced regular water with it because I figured I was drinking water.  It is the only thing, diet wise, that I'd changed recently.  And the research I came up with, depending on where you looked, seemed to link three things I was suffering from to aspartame, headaches, nausea, and blurred vision.  So as I began to look at labels of what I drank there was one constant, aspartame.  Willing to try just about anything, I took it out of my diet.  I got up in the morning and began having a cup of coffee.  I drank water for the rest of the day, sometimes having a coke at lunch.  I got home, had water.  Call it mental or not, my nausea got better, my vision is better, and I have not had the frequency or severity of headaches I had.  (Though Ginger got a scare this morning, she heard me get in a pill bottle and I could hear in her voice, "Do you have a headache?"  No baby, just my normal aches from a week of work.  How thankful I am for normal aches!).  And now, Saturday, I'm not laying on the couch seeing aura's or feeling the new familiar pressure of a coming storm in my head. 

The proof, of course, will be in the coming days, though it is funny how every major illness I've suffered had to do with something I drank!  Mental or not, at this moment I feel good.

We have made other changes as well.  Stress is not affecting me as much because I'm talking to Ginger and my brother in Christ David.  Leaving work at work!  I've begun getting more ventilation in the apartment when I paint and take precautions with oil based paint.  And Ginger and I had my friend David, and our friend Felicia over last night.  We went to BJ's and then came back and played Outburst!  It was a blast.  Felicia taught Ginger how to Wobble (to which I'm very thankful for!  ha ha!).  Oh yes, another change as well, if I'm ever on medication I'm not blogging (Combine out of your mind medication and listening to music you can relate to on your past and, well, just read the last post, you'll understand!).  I do, however, stand by the fact that the two CD's I've recently purchased are, in fact, two of my all time favorites!  But I must give a plug to Ginger's cousin's band, My Excuse who is on an American Tour right now, who have two of my favorite songs, "Is It Over" and "Silent Revolution".  When I can pry the CD of their music away from Ginger I can listen to the other songs!

Needless to say, we will be having Felicia over more and David, well, we are always finding ways to hang out!  Ginger feels a real connection with Felicia, those two just talked non stop, and Ginger has always loved David.  In terms of the guys vs. girls tally, we are one up!  (And if they could have come up with just one famous jockey, David and I would have to Wobble.  Wobble we did not!)

God has been walking with both Ginger and I through this storm, we have learned the power of prayer, and we have grown ever closer and stronger through this time.  God continues to be the glue of our relationship and as we grow closer to Him, we grow closer to each other.   Thank you for all your prayers and words of encouragement (got to give a special shout out to Mom, ever my encourager!).   Now to continue my research on camera lenses and what my next purchased lenses will be, though I'm loving my new book on Speedliting!  May have to cash in some of my best buy certificates for some lighting equipment for our studio!


P.S. Here are two pictures of a wood pecker I've been trying to photograph for years!  I added these pics after I published this post but had to put them up!  Enjoy!

Sunday, March 10, 2013


So for those of you that may have read my post yesterday, I took it off.  Yes, I was ranting a bit, I just had a moment.  I figured I'd put a bit of a more positive post on.  Not that the other wasn't, I had past if off of Ginger, but, well, you know when something doesn't settle in your spirit?  Well, I've gotten alot more sensitive, thanks to my wife, of being sensitive to the Spirit. 

Instead, I'd try it this way.  Maybe it has something to do with the new CD I got yesterday:

This is on my top 3 albums I've heard all time.  Distinctly Christian.  I followed Colton last year on American Idol.  I loved his style, edgy, yet completely Christian.  It touched me in ways Christian music hasn't in a while.  He was true to his self.  And I love the rocky edge it has and yet it touched my heart.  My good friend David texted me while I was listening to it and I was getting all emotional, something that rarely happens and, to me, is the sign of a great album.  When it touches you.

I mentioned another album yesterday, here it is:

This is a secular band, Halestorm, and yet another I would put in my top 3.  (Not bad, the last two of three albums I get are on my top 3!).  Halestorm, on the ballads of "In Your Room" and "Beautiful to Me" could make there case for being Christian in nature, though they are not (just go to the song, Daughters of Darkness and you realize they are not).  "In Your Room" touched me especially because of the significance it reminded me of Ginger and I's Dallas trip.  And in a moment of nostalgia yesterday afternoon, as I relived some of that, I wrote my post.

You see, I've been learning to share my feelings in ways I never had, with my wonderful wife.  It is absolutely not easy, considering I've been a loner so long.  I told David, my good friend, for 24 years I've been my own friend, how do I let someone else in?  His response:  How did you let Ginger in?  Damn David.  (Sorry for the french Mom!).  And he was right.  How did I let her in?  She waltzed into my heart and with a set of master key's only God could have given her, she unlocked all those areas of my heart that I had hidden.  I can talk with her about the difficult things, the hard things, the hidden things.  She knows things no one else does.  The areas I spray painted black, well, she knows those.

I'm having to learn how to be a friend.  I'm learning how to share with my wife.  I'm learning not to bottle up my emotions and feelings and get them out on the table.  Let's be honest, that is hard for me.  Part of it is the hurt I've been through, the rejection, the pain.   And part of it is the hurt and pain I've caused others.  I have a hard time forgiving myself, even after all these years.  I'm getting better, but as I've learned to share, the headaches seem to come with more frequency.  We did have a milestone yesterday though.  Migraine suffers will know what I'm talking about when I see an aura.  It is different for each sufferer, but mine is cloudy vision than seems to be in waves.  Last night I saw my aura.  So first thing I did was take my medicine.  I hadn't been feeling any real pain, but I knew it was coming.  Within two hours I was dead asleep on the couch.  When I woke up 4 hours later, I was a new man.  No pain, no headache, and I was feeling myself.  We had just learned how to circumvent 4 days of pain by heading the headache off at the past.