So for the past couple of weeks I have been on a musical journey with my nieces. They have been doing a 30 day song challenge and each day I comment to both on with a song from my own vast collection. They both have different styles and since I listen to all types of music I am able to pull from different sources. From songs I haven't heard in a while to songs that have listened to for years and never tire from, it has been a journey I have enjoyed as I look back to how music has influenced me, I cannot thank them enough for allowing me to join in.
In my recovery process, music has helped me. Helped me to express what is sometimes trapped in this introvert's body. It took me back to my youth and the songs that brought me happiness and even sorrow.. It helped me relate to artists who went through addictions and depressions that I have and gave me a voice. Songs my Dad and I have in common and my Mom as well. It has been a source of healing. I listen to all types of music. Christian, electronic, soft, classical, rock and metal. Classic to modern. And so this challenge with my nieces has allowed me to walk from my preteen years and hearing Juke Box Hero by Foreigner to Shinedown's Get Up. It has been fun, introspective, and a joy to share a piece of me with them.
I have been able to give background on some as to why it has influenced me. Sometimes it is deeply personal. Sometimes it relates to my depression and anxiety. Others my recovery and the addictions I have overcome. They have learned more about me and I them. And sometimes songs are just fun, a great rift, or bass or drum solo. Like Poison's Nothing but a good time. My brother and I, before I moved away would do their dance in the pool. A fun, wonderful memory. Or Hawk Nelson, The One thing I have left, a song that in recovery gave me hope. And many more.
Photography wise this has been an awesome week. I took my camera with me to work and got rewarded. I can tell how much I enjoy it because when I see something I seize the moment. Yes sometimes I take 5 minutes out of my work day when I see a shot that won't come around again for a long time. I own that and will take responsibility for that. I just get, lost, or focused in the moment. What do I get lost in, here is a sample:
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| Sleeping Chicks |
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| Closeup |
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| Hungry Chick |
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| Hungry Chcks |
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| Can you find him? |
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| Closeup | |
I started work back in Lindale on Saturday yesterday! I was stoked! I did not have my camera on the 4 wheeler out on the trail but I had my camera when I saw this beauty! Yes, I love photographing spiders! (Sorry Mom, but flowers are next!)
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| Wolf Spider |
Magnolia blooms are just starting so I decided to start getting some practice to get some really good shots. I have to take the screen off to take these shots, but I have my camera set up for it!
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| Magnolia setup |
Too much seriousness from work to life. It seems some are losing sight that God has this. If God says move, or do this, do it. But don't confuse that with acting in fear. God will give you wisdom. Jesus Himself said if I take care of the sparrows will I not take care of you? Don't get me wrong, these words are for me too. As I contemplate Ginger and I's direction God wants for our lives, those words of trusting in Him comfort me.
I am thankful that I have been able to work. It has not been easy at times, but God carries me. And provides. And protects. And guides. It is Him I look for to provide and God has shown that in wonderous ways. I can see changes coming in the distance, just waiting for God to provide the next steps. I will wait on Him. I can say that as I have refreshed on computers a familiar excitement has returned. I remember the computer before this one I am on now I built from the ground up. And this one I have customized. A joy that I thought was lost found again. I love working with my hands, I inherited that. I also love electronics and computers which are something I learned first from my Dad, then school, then experience. Again the joy is returning. When doubt creeps in that I may be too old, or my past may hinder, well, God has a way of turning the impossible to possible. After all, truthfully I never thought recovery would be possible either but look at me now. Our landlords gave a young couple a chance, and we are loved by them so much 10 years later. I have learned to stop holding onto things and life so tightly. God may want a complete new direction in your life. Trust Him. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring but I take comfort in this, God does. Trust Him.
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